But he's... nothing happened to him because of what we did. [He thinks about Louis all the time, but in a sort of abstract way, more or less the way he thought about Racetrack until she suddenly popped up again.
Well, not exactly the same way.
But anyway, it's sort of strange to really think about him again, and realize that his concern is still sincere.] I kept him out of it for a reason.
[ And she can understand that, in a weird, distant way. She never thought she was going to be able to do that, live, make a life. She was dead from the minute the Cylons destroyed the colonies, and now, here, she's breathing her first again. ]
[ He has this incredible opportunity, this complete freedom from everything that chained them down in their own world. All of that frakked-up crap can be in his past. He can live for him now. That's what she wants, and he should be less cynical than her. ]
Look-- [He sighs, still adamant, but tired.] You haven't been here for very long, Margaret. You'll understand better when you have. There are people on your side of the fence who feel the same way I do.
Don't give me that. I had to make a deal with a captain of an imaginary pirate island boat just to have a chance at living, okay? To have something that's mine.
[And now still tired, but more sharply:] Then you'll find out when the first person goes missing. Or when the Admiral turns you out onto a world where you're forced into the streets, or hunted like an animal. Or when you wake up to find out that a year's gone by without you. This world isn't any less frakked than the one we left behind. The only difference is that I had a choice about leaving that one.
And do you want to know, by the way, what sort of people you'll be asked to defend for that chance you want? It's not just Cylons. It's-- [No, he can't tell her about Gaius. Not here, not like this. He cuts off, switches subjects drastically.] And people resurrect here like they do, did you know that?
I got the memo, yeah. And no, you didn't have any choice about leaving the last one. You did it at the point of a firing squad. Don't frakking tell me that was your choice, unless you're about to admit to me that you decided to let Adama take you out.
But you weren't like that! Even if I wasn't aware you weren't like that, I sure would've known after a few days with Hoshi hunting after your ungrateful ass.
Do you really think I went to Tom Zarek to talk about a mutiny without knowing how high the chances were of that happening? To any one of us? I told you -- I wanted Louis out of it for a reason. He would have gone along with it for me, not because of the idea, and... and that wouldn't have been fair to him.
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This is your boyfriend?
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...Sort of.
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Well, not exactly the same way.
But anyway, it's sort of strange to really think about him again, and realize that his concern is still sincere.] I kept him out of it for a reason.
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Or happier to be at the side of the new commander, you mean.
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[ And she can understand that, in a weird, distant way. She never thought she was going to be able to do that, live, make a life. She was dead from the minute the Cylons destroyed the colonies, and now, here, she's breathing her first again. ]
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[ Because that's what her deal was. That's why she's here. A chance to be selfish, and to live her frakking life. ]
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[ He has this incredible opportunity, this complete freedom from everything that chained them down in their own world. All of that frakked-up crap can be in his past. He can live for him now. That's what she wants, and he should be less cynical than her. ]
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I just don't get it, Felix.
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And do you want to know, by the way, what sort of people you'll be asked to defend for that chance you want? It's not just Cylons. It's-- [No, he can't tell her about Gaius. Not here, not like this. He cuts off, switches subjects drastically.] And people resurrect here like they do, did you know that?
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