private to elena . 05th landing

[landfall]

Well, guess I'm eating my words.

Specifically, the words 'I'm not your warden'.

...I've got your file. Want to come over? Or are you going full on three-year-old and avoiding me?

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[forgetyourusedtobe]

[Elena snorts derisively because she doesn't believe it. Ever since she turned her emotions off, she's had more than one person trying to convince her in any way they can that she needs to turn them back on. She needs to go back to the way she was and want to take the cure.]

Are you sure you're qualified to be a warden? I'm pretty sure you're supposed to be telling me the joys of humanity and how it's just not like me to not care about anyone anymore.

Or my personal favorite from my ex: [She mocks Stefan's voice:] You'll regret all of this when you turn them back on, Elena. We're trying to save you from that guilt.

[landfall]

The great thing about making decisions for yourself is you own the guilt, too. It all belongs to you. I'm not going to try and protect you.

[ Which can actually be kind of reassuring, especially for someone whose life used to be out of control. You get the bad and the good. There's something in it, to Racetrack, that means you're a real person. That's what adulthood is: not making good decisions, but making decisions and dealing with what comes from it. ]

Humanity can be really great. It also can be... bad. Sometimes really bad. So do what you want.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Just don't kill anybody?

[landfall]

Try not to hurt anybody.

Someone tries to bite you and you put his face through a wall, or someone hits on you and you turn him down so fast it leaves skid marks, that's one thing. But going out of your way to make someone else's life worse, or trying to take away their freedom to choose and decide for themselves - that's not okay. Though I don't know why you'd even want to do that second one, if you know what it feels like yourself.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

[Elena nods. It doesn't necessarily mean she's going to adhere to it strictly or honestly speaking, but she can give the appearance of at least listening.]

I wouldn't, for the record. I've only really compelled one person and it was a mistake. It was just the easy way out of a bad situation and it ended up biting everyone in the ass.

[landfall]

[ This has not blown up or gone south yet, and Racetrack is highly suspicious of that fact. Elena is probably being full of shit.

Why did she think she would be able to do this? ]

Easy ways should really actually be easy more often.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

How else would karma ever be proven otherwise?

[landfall]

Karma can bite me.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Not that I'm an expert or anything, but I'm pretty sure that's what karma's supposed to do.

[landfall]

Anyway. Let me know if you want to go to the spa or beat up some stuff in the CTS or anything.

Did you want to go to that school? I'm not a fan of the blue-headed guy, he reminds me of someone I used to dislike a lot.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

[Elena snorts.]

You and me both. I'll pass.

But there is something you could get for me. If you're willing to let me have it.

[landfall]

[ She crosses her arms. ]

Let's hear it.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Before I ended up here, I kinda burned down my house.

[Because that's something you can kinda do, right? Right.]

So, all my family pictures... Well, you know. [Elena folds her arms and glances down. It's an act. Maybe Racetrack can tell. Maybe not. Elena's hoping not.] I just wouldn't mind having them back. It's not like I can visit their graves now whenever I want.

[landfall]

I'll get them.

[ That's something the Admiral could do.

And while she's at it, it wouldn't be a bad idea to get some for herself. ]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

[Elena nods a little and purses her lips.]

Thanks.

So are we done here?

[landfall]

I guess we're done.

[forgetyourusedtobe]

[Elena nods and turns to leave. Over her shoulder:]

Happy reading.